I found the online CG! quite an experience and since I was on dial up it was all typing. But nothing beats face to face and I still STRONGLY believe in the face to face encounter!

I was troubled once again today … because I’m concerned with the paradigms behind some conversations of the pastors I’m hearing these days. I’m interested to talk about theology, perhaps even spirituality and at least humanity .. ok some politics would be ok … but when things are reduced to buildings, strategies, and formulas of success … something in me shuts down 🙁 Lord have mercy 1000 times!

chatting with my new found friend in USA and some others in Cyberjaya … cool. But then I still miss face to face.

Happy to somehow manage to get Elysia to sleep after some struggle today … but it was good.

I found myself more at ease at certian points of counseling today … it requires much focus. And to me loads of grace and discernment and compassion. I’m still learning.

I was asked whether I “regret” leaving my previous church …:-) I smiled and kept silent. the answer is .. I have no regrets .. in fact, I’m thankful for the journey there and I’m glad where I am now and where I think I’ll be heading.. I’d never be where I am now if I didn’t leave.

Nice to pass by the places I grew up in today … especially No. 7 Jalan Terkis. It brings loads of memories back. That’s kind of my place of origins! Not just for my previous church (which I think many have forgotten), but also for the seeds of Christian faith in my mom’s family starting with my auntie and then grandfather etc.

I’m still upset with how many pastors are “turning” out nowaday … sorry. I’m complaining …. but I was much angrier in the afternoon. Now some steam has gone.

I feel pretty alone sometimes … I hope it’s not an “Elijah” thing … it trust God has many hidden somewhere… but I need to get in touch with those who are not “sold out” to consumer Christianity.

Got a long day tomorrow … a long week actually .. oh a long month … oh a long year end. … but looking forward to some fruitfulness in life and ministry.