http://sivinkit.net/archives/1815 happenings in my head and heart this side of heaven Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:52:20 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.3 http://sivinkit.net/archives/1815#comment-1597 Sivin Fri, 17 Feb 2006 10:39:35 +0000 http://sivinkit.net/archives/1815#comment-1597 Thanks Amy, you're always such a great encourager ...:-) I recall one of my mentor telling me once how after pastoring the church for years he found that the one that grew the most was himself (not in a selfish way but just looking at reality) and that's ok. But you are right, that the change that happens in us "will eventually effect at least a few people in close proximity to us" and often God suprises us whom we've made a difference and how it all happened. The funny thing is that the more we expect things to happen one way, God moves in ways that break out of our "boxes" ... and patience is an important virtue to help one see his movements and take the small steps of obedience forward. Thanks Amy, you’re always such a great encourager …:-) I recall one of my mentor telling me once how after pastoring the church for years he found that the one that grew the most was himself (not in a selfish way but just looking at reality) and that’s ok. But you are right, that the change that happens in us “will eventually effect at least a few people in close proximity to us” and often God suprises us whom we’ve made a difference and how it all happened. The funny thing is that the more we expect things to happen one way, God moves in ways that break out of our “boxes” … and patience is an important virtue to help one see his movements and take the small steps of obedience forward.

]]> http://sivinkit.net/archives/1815#comment-1596 Amy Fri, 17 Feb 2006 06:38:18 +0000 http://sivinkit.net/archives/1815#comment-1596 I think i hear what you're trying to say in some of this. From one introspective yet outgoing person to another, I can relate to the struggle of wondering what it amounts to - all the introspection, all the time you spend thinking, reading and connecting the dots between important things (in your own mind). The great ideas and vision for how things could and should be - yet so little of it materializes quickly enough for our satisfaction. Could it be that God intends all of this energy to be expended for our own growth? Is it enough that we will be changed and that change will eventually effect at least a few people in close proximity to us. Doesn't seem very exciting. But I've come to a place, finally, where I have given up my great expectations for all that God could use me to do and am humbly trying to serve the few who clamor for my attention on a daily basis. Perhaps somehow God will make something great come from it. Pehaps He is telling us to wait, that good things take time and He is in control. Keep searching, growing and sharing. You are a blessing to so many of us. I think i hear what you’re trying to say in some of this. From one introspective yet outgoing person to another, I can relate to the struggle of wondering what it amounts to - all the introspection, all the time you spend thinking, reading and connecting the dots between important things (in your own mind). The great ideas and vision for how things could and should be - yet so little of it materializes quickly enough for our satisfaction. Could it be that God intends all of this energy to be expended for our own growth? Is it enough that we will be changed and that change will eventually effect at least a few people in close proximity to us. Doesn’t seem very exciting. But I’ve come to a place, finally, where I have given up my great expectations for all that God could use me to do and am humbly trying to serve the few who clamor for my attention on a daily basis. Perhaps somehow God will make something great come from it. Pehaps He is telling us to wait, that good things take time and He is in control. Keep searching, growing and sharing. You are a blessing to so many of us.

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