Comments on: To be Yours http://sivinkit.net/archives/2488 happenings in my head and heart this side of heaven Fri, 16 May 2008 03:46:10 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.3 By: Collin Nunis http://sivinkit.net/archives/2488#comment-2429 Collin Nunis Mon, 30 Apr 2007 17:01:25 +0000 http://sivinkit.net/archives/2488#comment-2429 I lose sight of God easily, or may forget Him altogether, although I can always remember to talk about Jesus. But talking about Him and His Good News does not always sound sincere if my walk with God is not sincere. In this busy pace as student and "all of the above", I fall easily. Part of me wants to be this, part of me needs to do that etc., but I never stop to think if my needs and wants are compatible with what God wants and needs of me. As a young person, I am still searching for myself. I know who I am destined to be. But questions arise... Should I just throw everything aside and leave? Will things fall into place the way it should be? So many thoughts in my head. But as Cardinal Newman says, I may never know of my mission in life but somehow I am necessary. No matter how imperfect I maybe, I know I'm good for something. At this point, I can only think of Jeremiah 1.5. I am "a prophet to the nations", in my own unique way, just as others are. No matter how imperfect I have been, and no matter how many sins I have committed in the past, like every other baptised Christian made in the image of the living God, I am an "angel of peace" and a "pillar of truth". But how? Literally? I believe the answer(s) <i>is</i> just in front of me, looking at me straight in the eyes. By God's grace, I will find it. I am here. Send me Lord! (Isaiah 6:5 - 8) I lose sight of God easily, or may forget Him altogether, although I can always remember to talk about Jesus. But talking about Him and His Good News does not always sound sincere if my walk with God is not sincere. In this busy pace as student and “all of the above”, I fall easily. Part of me wants to be this, part of me needs to do that etc., but I never stop to think if my needs and wants are compatible with what God wants and needs of me.

As a young person, I am still searching for myself. I know who I am destined to be. But questions arise… Should I just throw everything aside and leave? Will things fall into place the way it should be? So many thoughts in my head. But as Cardinal Newman says, I may never know of my mission in life but somehow I am necessary. No matter how imperfect I maybe, I know I’m good for something.

At this point, I can only think of Jeremiah 1.5. I am “a prophet to the nations”, in my own unique way, just as others are. No matter how imperfect I have been, and no matter how many sins I have committed in the past, like every other baptised Christian made in the image of the living God, I am an “angel of peace” and a “pillar of truth”. But how? Literally?

I believe the answer(s) is just in front of me, looking at me straight in the eyes. By God’s grace, I will find it. I am here. Send me Lord! (Isaiah 6:5 - 8)

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