CATARAQUI RIVER MEDITATION

31 07 2006

“How did the mother duck know
The recipe for making her eggs?

And how did my own mother work out
The 900 ingredients for the milk I drank?

How did the salmon give directions
For finding the way home?

Would I ever learn to swallow again
After forty days of this stroke?

Then suddenly the miracle
The applesauce went down.”

~ >Robert Brow

I read this on my wise eighty two year old sage-friend website - He is one who had helped me through many mini and bigger “hells” in my life. He shared with me many joys too. He also opened me to see pastoral ministry and theological reflection with a bigger heart and broader mind. I’m so indebted to him (though we haven’t been in touch much lately), and I’m praying for him to be in good health. Take care Bob.




The Evolution of A Worshipper

31 07 2006

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Gareth and I giggled and laughed out loud after seeing this. I can relate with every single phase. And I’m comfortable as well as able step in and out of the phases too :-) Worship is never stagnant isn’t it? Thanks to CartoonChurch.com for this humor therapy.




Random Links 105

31 07 2006

how to write (Be Lonely, Straight, and True)
“Be fearless. Explain nothing. Justify nothing. See things as they are and write about them. Don’t waste your creative energy trying to make things up. Even if you are writing fiction, write the things you see and know.” I enjoy blogging … I like communicating …I struggle with writing.

How to lose weight without even trying… ( The Cambridge Fives? No, the Cambridge Thirty!)
Someone couldn’t recognize me because of the weight I’ve gained. Of course, i was REALLY skinny when I was in my twenties :-) “Nestle’s core advice for good health boils down to three phrases and 10 words:
Eat less.
Move more.
Eat lots of fruits and vegetables.

If you want to make it more complicated, says Nestle, add five more words:
Go easy on junk food.

(Thanks Maggi for the links above and the attractive “how to” titles)

A few more Presentation How To’s
It’s been quite a while since I’ve spent a little time reading this kind of stuff … good reminders. Be authentic doesn’t mean being sloppy.

A More Satisfying Life…
simple and yet important points to keep in mind … and we could add more!

Ten Christian Teachings You Won’t Find On A Watchblog
Watchblogs will surely have something to reply to this … starting with “you can’t just talk about love, how about truth?”. :-)
Three oft-misused pieces of logic
another good one from Sven. I’m using the three exhibits for self-examination on this pleasant monday.

A Life Lived Whole (via Len)
Much to chew on … “The divided life comes in many and varied forms. To cite just a few examples, it is the life we lead when:

• We refuse to invest ourselves in our work,
diminishing its quality and distancing ourselves from those it is meant to serve
• We make our living at jobs that violate our basic values, even when survival does not absolutely demand it
• We remain in settings or relationships that steadily kill off our spirit
• We harbor secrets to achieve personal gain at the expense of other people
• We hide our beliefs from those who disagree with us to avoid conflict, challenge, and change
• We conceal our true identities for fear of being criticized, shunned, or attacked

“My knowledge of the divided life comes first from personal experience. A “still, small voice” speaks the truth about me, my work, or the world. I hear it and yet act as if I did not. I withhold a personal gift that might serve a good end or commit myself to a project that I do not really believe in. I keep silent on an issue I should address or actively break faith with one of my own convictions. I deny my inner darkness, giving it more power over me, or I project it onto other people, creating “enemies” where none exist.

” How shall we understand the pathology of the divided life? If we approach it as a problem to be solved by “raising the ethical bar”—exhorting each other to jump higher and meting out tougher penalties to those who fall short—we may feel more virtuous for a while, but we will not address the problem at its source.

“The divided life, at bottom, is not a failure of ethics; it is a failure of human wholeness. ..”




Canon A70 Returns

30 07 2006

It’s great to have our first Digital Camera back (we do forsee another one in the future but not near future *grin*). It’s great of Canon Malaysia to repair it for free … they have been very good in keeping my confidence in their service and even winning extra points!

It was nice to feel the camera in my hand and the freedom to capture moments once again.

A funny moment was when Gareth and I was looking at some “changgih” (”awesome”) hi fi display and then some one asked me where I need help, I said we’re just looking and then i have some one put his arm on my shoulder … and then to my suprised is the latest wed couple from our church - Paul and Joanne (”Mrs. Ong!”). We had a lot of laughter over that. It was funny to be teased bby some one else rather than being the one playing tricks on others. good medicine for tonight.




I Don’t Know

30 07 2006

“BILL MOYERS: And so the– in your life, there has not really been then a deep conflict between faith and reason.

SIR JOHN HOUGHTON: No, not a deep conflict. No. I’ve– I’ve recognized the potential for conflict. I’ve recognized those areas which are– which I can’t resolve. But then I also think, you know, one of the most important statements you can make as a scientist are: I don’t know. One of the most important statements you should be prepared to make as a believer is: I don’t know.

And too many people don’t want to say: I don’t know. Because there are– you know, we’re just human beings. Knowledge is very limited. And to say you don’t know is a very– very proper scientific statement. You may know sometime. But I don’t know now. And– and the same is true in the having of your faith. There are lots of things I don’t know. And I have to remain ignorant. Or I agnostic whatever it may be, because I don’t know. And there are too many theologians and too many people out there who say, “I know,” when there’s no right to say that. ” ~ Bill Moyers on Faith & Reason (Interview with Sir John Houghton)




Random Thoughts after a pretty good day

29 07 2006

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It was good to reach the MV Doulos (picture above) around 10am today at Port Klang. Bumped into a lot of familiar faces and old friends. My favorite part were getting some books for very good prices like Colin Gunton’s Act and Being for RM8. I thoroughly enjoyed the guided tour of the ship with a handsome friendly fellow Malaysians Simon and the Jovial Nigel.

One thing I came back thinking about was the amount of discipline, thought and organization needed to facilitate an environment for a community of more than 300 people adult and children (and also multinational!)

the ice cream on board was GOOD! And we sad at a cool place to enjoy it!

I almost fell asleep here and there after lunch driving back… phew! thus, the afternoon nap was so needed. :-)
Had a good dinner tonight .. pizza and all. I don’t eat Durian but May Chin and our guests had a great time.

It was nice to hear someone identify themselves with BLC (our church) today… in a sense she has been included all along in some way. Perhaps this is her way of including herself?

I’m thankful for a good time of listening and conversing with a young couple seeing the best for each other and their future. Lord, may you contine to guide their path and we “older” ones making room to be there and share in their journey.

It was good to listen to Gareth talk about “stuff” we are processing with him today. There are areas of behaviour, attitudes and perhaps fears which need attention. Parenting is rewarding and uphill in many ways.

The silence is precious right now. I think I will savour it for a moment.

I think I’m going to get a cup of warm water, my highlighters and pen, my journal and spend some time to do a 8 minute review of the day(Mp3).




Bobby Mcferrin & Grupa Mocarta

29 07 2006

I need something fun tonight … and the way these guys do it is REALLY fun.




Random Thoughts while dual tasking!

28 07 2006

I realized I haven’t blogged much content apart from linking to others partly because I have been spending some time replying the conversations on a couple of email groups I’m on. I’ll pick out some random statements and post them below.

“… Faith is as our response to Christ is first and foremost, trust (a little fuzzier then mental assent to a set of statements), the recent readings in the lectionary through Mark 4,5,6 … reminded me of the dynamics of faith and response to Christ ( e.g. the demoniac, the woman with the issue of blood, the Jairus episode) and the contrast with Nazereth, the disciples, and Herod. Gives me the narrative framework to work beyond the way the question is framed above. I have problems if I need to “expect” children, people with learning disabilities, people in coma, or those severely messed up in their thinking etc to having things sorted out before they are accepted by Christ. I see it as they are accepted first, and then slowly being restored or formed into the fullness of image of God (which includes the intellectual bit)

… I admit, it’s increasingly harder for me in the wake of many unhealthy “prosperity” and “faith” and “success” teaching nowadays. But, I’m challenged to either confront them when I have a chance (which we may need to do) and I must focus on what I perceive as a better and more faithful alternative - and see communities cultivated which are theologically, spiritually, and misisonally maturing (note: continuous tense), No easy answers here.

… I think when there’s a common “cause” or “focus” I too have had wonderful relations with those who are “less like” me (that looked like “like me less” *smile* but there’s a difference). Perhaps now the challenge is how do we (and here we are starting with Christians for now) …

(1) Co-exist with those whom disagree with us (e.g. Tony & Peggy Campolo are an interesting example in the case of “homosexual partnerships”, or closer to home those who are more “goverment supportive” or “critical of the government”, and of course, those who have differing theological persuasions and methodology)?

(2) Engage in conversation to allow for mutual growth (whether i affirmation or admonishment) … e.g. I’m constantly reminded to not “neglect” the Holy Spirit by the Pentecostal/Charismatic stream, and yet I think Luther’s Theology of the Cross is something my friends i that stream would appreciate, and then how this kind of interaction changes us). BUt this is possible when we allow for some “liminal” space in terms of oour thinking, experience and ministry.

(3) Avoid a “globalization” (in a sense) of one “form” of Christianity exported or mutated in our midst … this means there will always be a sense of continuity with out past (e.g. many of our churches have a missionary past and influence), a continuity with the wider church (including our western counterparts) but also a discontinuity because of contextual factors whether in time and place. And out of this dynamic or dialectic, there’s a move forward or beyond more confining catergories ( e.g. my own journey is between evangelical/charismatic emphasis, then evangelical/liberal concerns, ..) My sense is many of us “feel” this experientially (or exsistentially) but are fumbling with the language to express this exploration adequately.

… if we do not demand the texts from the OT to NT to fall into a tight “system” then we allow for things unsaid to exist in some tension or even a humble willingness to acknowledge we don’t know in detail. In my theological naivety during seminary, I recall a friend asking me about whether we can lose our salvation or one saved always saved. I cheekily said. You know, to me if these guys are over confident in the early church and I am Paul …. watching them squandering the Christian faith and messing up the Gospel with abuse - I’d shout watch out man .. you might lose your salvation! If there’s some Christian genuinely strugglling with walking faithfully and seeking to follow Jesus but failing because of the realities of sin and life on earth .. if I am an epistle writer I’d say … You are in God’s hands, you will persevere … he will help you. there is a sense that the Texts written to the people first and foremost are either to challenge or comfort more than proviiding the “answers” to often speculative questions which after getting a “packaged” static answer leaves us with nothing much to respond?!

… when we use the metaphor of a dance with three points rather than two poles (praxis verses thinking), i.e.
to me spirituality, thinking (theology) and praxis then we can do more constructive work. This is how it works for me lately. I’m sharing a testimony and not saying I’ve achieved (necessary qualifier of a fellow sinner)

I’ve been reading Bonhoeffer’s Sanctorum communio and intrigued and appreciate his emphasis on I-You, the concern for “the other” and also meditating on the lectionary texts and noticing how Jesus encounters those “outside” the religious=social-economic boundaries ( e.g. Mark 5 - woman with the issue of blood, the demonized person, and Jairus episode, etc). When I sit down and consciously think about it … there’s a dynamic going on here in my prayer and theologizing (thinking) .. certain space is opened (for the Spirit to do some work).

Then with the Article 11 concerns and other things happening in the paper, I’m constantly reminded of how is my relationship with the “other” especially my Malay Muslim neighbors. This makes me want to talk with them and initiate a smile or conversation (which happened thanks to Gareth very often as a bridge - naturally not manipulatively)

So in a small way .. a baby step you may say … I also want to intentionally learn and practice how to allow this kind of “ortho”-cylce of spirituality, theology, praxis dance. So, whenever, I’m asking theological questions, I consciouly engage in spiritual practice and/or a missional endeavor of some sort. The hope is after some time … this will be part and parcel of me - with out me even thinking about it.Of course, there’s the other dimension of God’s work and prompting which we can discuss further.

This is an important frame of reference for me .. and then as we explore hard questions ranging from theology to ethics. there will be a greater congruence with oour mental abilities and the lives we live. Not easy. And we’d be less concerned to have the final say on people’s eternal destiny (since it’s not up to us) while appreciating the good that is present and confronting the evil that is there too in whatever situation. Raise more pressing questions which open doors rather than close them - espcially in engaging with the “Other” whom is unlike me (or may not like me - or I them). I think sounding a little cliche here … but more our of a second naivete … people need to meet Jesus, and we share Him with them. Perhaps we need to be a little bit more cautious before adopt a “all or nothing” approach to others. This requires a proper confidence in Jesus, and a certian level of security in ourselves and respect for the other person to be different and think differently. And of course, a key practice we are learning is the art of distinguishing … distinguising the major and the minor, or even the knowable as well as unknowlable .. together with that is the importance of discernment .. our inner motives and attitudes will be a good start, our fears and concerns too … and as we do that, we can also begin to discern the state of the heart of the other … “

These thoughts are raw and unrefined … I offer them as a gift (if anyone feels them helpful.) Perhaps there were more thoughts above so tonight less random thoughts to offer … cut and paste stuff through the day is still ok :-)




Tony Campolo on Capitol Hill

26 07 2006

I don’t want to just put my hands on the Bible, I want to open the Bible and read what’s inside the book and change the way I make decisions. Thanks Tony for knocking some sense into me! :-)
And yes … we will keep an eye on the church budget so we won’t use it for strange things!




A Close LRT Call for the Kit Boys

25 07 2006

I was surprised to read and told this morning about : Computer glitch affects LRT service


“Hundreds of commuters were stranded when the Putra LRT stopped due to a computer glitch along the Kelana Jaya line.

At least four trains came to a halt between stations when the system broke down at 6.16pm yesterday.

The most affected stations were between KL Sentral and Ampang Park, and it took more than an hour to evacuate passengers. Trains at other stations were able to proceed to their destinations as soon as the system resumed at about 7.15pm. “

I think Gareth and I arrived at KLCC station perhaps around 6pm or slightly later. … so we missed the whole episode. Yesterday, we decided to take the train to meet with May Chin to take my mom out for dinner. In fact, Gareth had a great trip, we had a great conversation with a lady in the train on the moving vehicles and getting into the tunnel. It was a very pleasant journey. At least for us. But sadly for the rest who got stranded later … it’s one day after work you want to forget.

How does one process an episode like this? What is one’s response?

Lord, I don’t know “why” we missed this incident. But, we are thankful we’re ok. And we pray for those who were trapped in the trains and disturbed by the whole incident - your peace and protection will be over them. Lord, you know I’m not into explanations or triumphalism. But, I do ask for care and deligence for those who are reparing the damage and maintaining the LRT on a day to day basis. That’s all I can say for now …Amen.