July 31, 2006
CATARAQUI RIVER MEDITATION
"How did the mother duck know
The recipe for making her eggs?
And how did my own mother work out
The 900 ingredients for the milk I drank?
How did the salmon give directions
For finding the way home?
Would I ever learn to swallow again
After forty days of this stroke?
Then suddenly the miracle
The applesauce went down."
~ >Robert Brow
I read this on my wise eighty two year old sage-friend website - He is one who had helped me through many mini and bigger "hells" in my life. He shared with me many joys too. He also opened me to see pastoral ministry and theological reflection with a bigger heart and broader mind. I'm so indebted to him (though we haven't been in touch much lately), and I'm praying for him to be in good health. Take care Bob.
The Evolution of A Worshipper
Gareth and I giggled and laughed out loud after seeing this. I can relate with every single phase. And I'm comfortable as well as able step in and out of the phases too :-) Worship is never stagnant isn't it? Thanks to CartoonChurch.com for this humor therapy.
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how to write (Be Lonely, Straight, and True)
"Be fearless. Explain nothing. Justify nothing. See things as they are and write about them. Don’t waste your creative energy trying to make things up. Even if you are writing fiction, write the things you see and know." I enjoy blogging ... I like communicating ...I struggle with writing.
How to lose weight without even trying... ( The Cambridge Fives? No, the Cambridge Thirty!)
Someone couldn't recognize me because of the weight I've gained. Of course, i was REALLY skinny when I was in my twenties :-) "Nestle's core advice for good health boils down to three phrases and 10 words:
Eat less.
Move more.
Eat lots of fruits and vegetables.
If you want to make it more complicated, says Nestle, add five more words:
Go easy on junk food.
(Thanks Maggi for the links above and the attractive "how to" titles)
A few more Presentation How To's
It's been quite a while since I've spent a little time reading this kind of stuff ... good reminders. Be authentic doesn't mean being sloppy.
A More Satisfying Life...
simple and yet important points to keep in mind ... and we could add more!
Ten Christian Teachings You Won't Find On A Watchblog
Watchblogs will surely have something to reply to this ... starting with "you can't just talk about love, how about truth?". :-)
Three oft-misused pieces of logic
another good one from Sven. I'm using the three exhibits for self-examination on this pleasant monday.
A Life Lived Whole (via Len)
Much to chew on ... “The divided life comes in many and varied forms. To cite just a few examples, it is the life we lead when:
• We refuse to invest ourselves in our work,
diminishing its quality and distancing ourselves from those it is meant to serve
• We make our living at jobs that violate our basic values, even when survival does not absolutely demand it
• We remain in settings or relationships that steadily kill off our spirit
• We harbor secrets to achieve personal gain at the expense of other people
• We hide our beliefs from those who disagree with us to avoid conflict, challenge, and change
• We conceal our true identities for fear of being criticized, shunned, or attacked
“My knowledge of the divided life comes first from personal experience. A “still, small voice” speaks the truth about me, my work, or the world. I hear it and yet act as if I did not. I withhold a personal gift that might serve a good end or commit myself to a project that I do not really believe in. I keep silent on an issue I should address or actively break faith with one of my own convictions. I deny my inner darkness, giving it more power over me, or I project it onto other people, creating “enemies” where none exist.
” How shall we understand the pathology of the divided life? If we approach it as a problem to be solved by “raising the ethical bar”—exhorting each other to jump higher and meting out tougher penalties to those who fall short—we may feel more virtuous for a while, but we will not address the problem at its source.
“The divided life, at bottom, is not a failure of ethics; it is a failure of human wholeness. ..”
July 30, 2006
Canon A70 Returns
It's great to have our first Digital Camera back (we do forsee another one in the future but not near future *grin*). It's great of Canon Malaysia to repair it for free ... they have been very good in keeping my confidence in their service and even winning extra points!
It was nice to feel the camera in my hand and the freedom to capture moments once again.
A funny moment was when Gareth and I was looking at some "changgih" ("awesome") hi fi display and then some one asked me where I need help, I said we're just looking and then i have some one put his arm on my shoulder ... and then to my suprised is the latest wed couple from our church - Paul and Joanne ("Mrs. Ong!"). We had a lot of laughter over that. It was funny to be teased bby some one else rather than being the one playing tricks on others. good medicine for tonight.
I Don't Know
"BILL MOYERS: And so the-- in your life, there has not really been then a deep conflict between faith and reason.
SIR JOHN HOUGHTON: No, not a deep conflict. No. I've-- I've recognized the potential for conflict. I've recognized those areas which are-- which I can't resolve. But then I also think, you know, one of the most important statements you can make as a scientist are: I don't know. One of the most important statements you should be prepared to make as a believer is: I don't know.
And too many people don't want to say: I don't know. Because there are-- you know, we're just human beings. Knowledge is very limited. And to say you don't know is a very-- very proper scientific statement. You may know sometime. But I don't know now. And-- and the same is true in the having of your faith. There are lots of things I don't know. And I have to remain ignorant. Or I agnostic whatever it may be, because I don't know. And there are too many theologians and too many people out there who say, "I know," when there's no right to say that. " ~ Bill Moyers on Faith & Reason (Interview with Sir John Houghton)
July 29, 2006
Random Thoughts after a pretty good day
It was good to reach the MV Doulos (picture above) around 10am today at Port Klang. Bumped into a lot of familiar faces and old friends. My favorite part were getting some books for very good prices like Colin Gunton's Act and Being for RM8. I thoroughly enjoyed the guided tour of the ship with a handsome friendly fellow Malaysians Simon and the Jovial Nigel.
One thing I came back thinking about was the amount of discipline, thought and organization needed to facilitate an environment for a community of more than 300 people adult and children (and also multinational!)
the ice cream on board was GOOD! And we sad at a cool place to enjoy it!
I almost fell asleep here and there after lunch driving back... phew! thus, the afternoon nap was so needed. :-)
Had a good dinner tonight .. pizza and all. I don't eat Durian but May Chin and our guests had a great time.
It was nice to hear someone identify themselves with BLC (our church) today... in a sense she has been included all along in some way. Perhaps this is her way of including herself?
I'm thankful for a good time of listening and conversing with a young couple seeing the best for each other and their future. Lord, may you contine to guide their path and we "older" ones making room to be there and share in their journey.
It was good to listen to Gareth talk about "stuff" we are processing with him today. There are areas of behaviour, attitudes and perhaps fears which need attention. Parenting is rewarding and uphill in many ways.
The silence is precious right now. I think I will savour it for a moment.
I think I'm going to get a cup of warm water, my highlighters and pen, my journal and spend some time to do a 8 minute review of the day(Mp3).
Bobby Mcferrin & Grupa Mocarta
I need something fun tonight ... and the way these guys do it is REALLY fun.
July 28, 2006
Random Thoughts while dual tasking!
I realized I haven't blogged much content apart from linking to others partly because I have been spending some time replying the conversations on a couple of email groups I'm on. I'll pick out some random statements and post them below.
"... Faith is as our response to Christ is first and foremost, trust (a little fuzzier then mental assent to a set of statements), the recent readings in the lectionary through Mark 4,5,6 ... reminded me of the dynamics of faith and response to Christ ( e.g. the demoniac, the woman with the issue of blood, the Jairus episode) and the contrast with Nazereth, the disciples, and Herod. Gives me the narrative framework to work beyond the way the question is framed above. I have problems if I need to "expect" children, people with learning disabilities, people in coma, or those severely messed up in their thinking etc to having things sorted out before they are accepted by Christ. I see it as they are accepted first, and then slowly being restored or formed into the fullness of image of God (which includes the intellectual bit)
... I admit, it's increasingly harder for me in the wake of many unhealthy "prosperity" and "faith" and "success" teaching nowadays. But, I'm challenged to either confront them when I have a chance (which we may need to do) and I must focus on what I perceive as a better and more faithful alternative - and see communities cultivated which are theologically, spiritually, and misisonally maturing (note: continuous tense), No easy answers here.
... I think when there's a common "cause" or "focus" I too have had wonderful relations with those who are "less like" me (that looked like "like me less" *smile* but there's a difference). Perhaps now the challenge is how do we (and here we are starting with Christians for now) ...
(1) Co-exist with those whom disagree with us (e.g. Tony & Peggy Campolo are an interesting example in the case of "homosexual partnerships", or closer to home those who are more "goverment supportive" or "critical of the government", and of course, those who have differing theological persuasions and methodology)?
(2) Engage in conversation to allow for mutual growth (whether i affirmation or admonishment) ... e.g. I'm constantly reminded to not "neglect" the Holy Spirit by the Pentecostal/Charismatic stream, and yet I think Luther's Theology of the Cross is something my friends i that stream would appreciate, and then how this kind of interaction changes us). BUt this is possible when we allow for some "liminal" space in terms of oour thinking, experience and ministry.
(3) Avoid a "globalization" (in a sense) of one "form" of Christianity exported or mutated in our midst ... this means there will always be a sense of continuity with out past (e.g. many of our churches have a missionary past and influence), a continuity with the wider church (including our western counterparts) but also a discontinuity because of contextual factors whether in time and place. And out of this dynamic or dialectic, there's a move forward or beyond more confining catergories ( e.g. my own journey is between evangelical/charismatic emphasis, then evangelical/liberal concerns, ..) My sense is many of us "feel" this experientially (or exsistentially) but are fumbling with the language to express this exploration adequately.
... if we do not demand the texts from the OT to NT to fall into a tight "system" then we allow for things unsaid to exist in some tension or even a humble willingness to acknowledge we don't know in detail. In my theological naivety during seminary, I recall a friend asking me about whether we can lose our salvation or one saved always saved. I cheekily said. You know, to me if these guys are over confident in the early church and I am Paul .... watching them squandering the Christian faith and messing up the Gospel with abuse - I'd shout watch out man .. you might lose your salvation! If there's some Christian genuinely strugglling with walking faithfully and seeking to follow Jesus but failing because of the realities of sin and life on earth .. if I am an epistle writer I'd say ... You are in God's hands, you will persevere ... he will help you. there is a sense that the Texts written to the people first and foremost are either to challenge or comfort more than proviiding the "answers" to often speculative questions which after getting a "packaged" static answer leaves us with nothing much to respond?!
... when we use the metaphor of a dance with three points rather than two poles (praxis verses thinking), i.e.
to me spirituality, thinking (theology) and praxis then we can do more constructive work. This is how it works for me lately. I'm sharing a testimony and not saying I've achieved (necessary qualifier of a fellow sinner)
I've been reading Bonhoeffer's Sanctorum communio and intrigued and appreciate his emphasis on I-You, the concern for "the other" and also meditating on the lectionary texts and noticing how Jesus encounters those "outside" the religious=social-economic boundaries ( e.g. Mark 5 - woman with the issue of blood, the demonized person, and Jairus episode, etc). When I sit down and consciously think about it ... there's a dynamic going on here in my prayer and theologizing (thinking) .. certain space is opened (for the Spirit to do some work).
Then with the Article 11 concerns and other things happening in the paper, I'm constantly reminded of how is my relationship with the "other" especially my Malay Muslim neighbors. This makes me want to talk with them and initiate a smile or conversation (which happened thanks to Gareth very often as a bridge - naturally not manipulatively)
So in a small way .. a baby step you may say ... I also want to intentionally learn and practice how to allow this kind of "ortho"-cylce of spirituality, theology, praxis dance. So, whenever, I'm asking theological questions, I consciouly engage in spiritual practice and/or a missional endeavor of some sort. The hope is after some time ... this will be part and parcel of me - with out me even thinking about it.Of course, there's the other dimension of God's work and prompting which we can discuss further.
This is an important frame of reference for me .. and then as we explore hard questions ranging from theology to ethics. there will be a greater congruence with oour mental abilities and the lives we live. Not easy. And we'd be less concerned to have the final say on people's eternal destiny (since it's not up to us) while appreciating the good that is present and confronting the evil that is there too in whatever situation. Raise more pressing questions which open doors rather than close them - espcially in engaging with the "Other" whom is unlike me (or may not like me - or I them). I think sounding a little cliche here ... but more our of a second naivete ... people need to meet Jesus, and we share Him with them. Perhaps we need to be a little bit more cautious before adopt a "all or nothing" approach to others. This requires a proper confidence in Jesus, and a certian level of security in ourselves and respect for the other person to be different and think differently. And of course, a key practice we are learning is the art of distinguishing ... distinguising the major and the minor, or even the knowable as well as unknowlable .. together with that is the importance of discernment .. our inner motives and attitudes will be a good start, our fears and concerns too ... and as we do that, we can also begin to discern the state of the heart of the other ... "
These thoughts are raw and unrefined ... I offer them as a gift (if anyone feels them helpful.) Perhaps there were more thoughts above so tonight less random thoughts to offer ... cut and paste stuff through the day is still ok :-)
July 26, 2006
Tony Campolo on Capitol Hill
I don't want to just put my hands on the Bible, I want to open the Bible and read what's inside the book and change the way I make decisions. Thanks Tony for knocking some sense into me! :-)
And yes ... we will keep an eye on the church budget so we won't use it for strange things!
July 25, 2006
A Close LRT Call for the Kit Boys
I was surprised to read and told this morning about : Computer glitch affects LRT service
"Hundreds of commuters were stranded when the Putra LRT stopped due to a computer glitch along the Kelana Jaya line.
At least four trains came to a halt between stations when the system broke down at 6.16pm yesterday.
The most affected stations were between KL Sentral and Ampang Park, and it took more than an hour to evacuate passengers. Trains at other stations were able to proceed to their destinations as soon as the system resumed at about 7.15pm. "
I think Gareth and I arrived at KLCC station perhaps around 6pm or slightly later. ... so we missed the whole episode. Yesterday, we decided to take the train to meet with May Chin to take my mom out for dinner. In fact, Gareth had a great trip, we had a great conversation with a lady in the train on the moving vehicles and getting into the tunnel. It was a very pleasant journey. At least for us. But sadly for the rest who got stranded later ... it's one day after work you want to forget.
How does one process an episode like this? What is one's response?
Lord, I don't know "why" we missed this incident. But, we are thankful we're ok. And we pray for those who were trapped in the trains and disturbed by the whole incident - your peace and protection will be over them. Lord, you know I'm not into explanations or triumphalism. But, I do ask for care and deligence for those who are reparing the damage and maintaining the LRT on a day to day basis. That's all I can say for now ...Amen.
U2 - Sunday Bloody Sunday
with so much mess in the world and at our backyard ... perhaps this U2 song would be a fitting closure for tonight. Reading/watching the news lately can be depressing and also hard not to be cynical... how long must we sing this song?
July 24, 2006
Pray-as-you-go
I found the format and content of Sacred Space helpful in my own prayer-meditation practice. Today, I went to Pray-as-you-go and was delighted to see resources in Mp3 format. Especially the Preparing to Pray section (which is always the first hurdle for many of us) where there are simple 4 minute guides for breathing exercise and body exercise It's so true after these years of wreslting in the art of prayer (which is often seen as a "spiritual" exercise) we need to actually begin with the physical. The 8 minute segment of At the end of the Day where we are guided through a review of the day helps us wind down and allow us to walk through the day and reflect upo different events and encounters. Very helpful and enriching.
Tony Royster Jr.
Mondays are supposed to be "fun time" for me. so, that's why more YouTube stuff especially music. Now, just using the mouth and voice is much cheaper than getting a drum kit. But this kid is amazing! If music is a way of releasing tension ... I suppose playing drums is one way!
Kenny Muhammad The Human Orchestra Promo
This might give Gareth more ideas ... wow!
YoyoMa & Bobby McFerrin - Hush, Little Baby
Gareth and Elysia brings me lots of smiles and grey hairs (some loss of hair) as they blossom and grow these days. Whether it's the way they talk or walk, it's good to observe all this as their Papa. One of the challenges is still how can we put them to sleep faster. :-) Gareth has been exploring some Bobby McFerrin-style vocalising after I introduced him to Bobby's singing.
July 23, 2006
Be careful
"Be careful to preserve your health. It is a trick of the devil, which he employs to deceive good souls, to incite them to do more than they are able, in order that they may no longer be able to do anything. "
~ Vincent De Paul
Interesting quote from one who has done so much.
July 22, 2006
Love Beyond Our Boundaries
"True evangelism, based on the example of Jesus, does not suggest the “missionary zeal” of self-righteous proselytizers. It implies, on the contrary, the kind of all-embracing universality evident in Mother Teresa’s prayer: “May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in.” Not just fellow nuns, Catholics, Calcuttans, Indians. The whole world. It gives me pause to realize that, were such a prayer said by me and answered by God, I would afterward possess a heart so open that even hate-driven zealots would fall inside." ~ David James Duncan (via inward/outward)
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Mob heckles seven undergrads in UPM
This is sad. There's a need for a better way forward.
How to Suppress Discussions of Racism (via quick news)
hmmm ...
The new war in the Middle East
Good stuff, "As Christians committed to the cause of peace, our role is not to "take sides" in the struggle, in the traditional sense, but rather to constantly stand for the "side" of a just and secure peace."
Seeking academic freedom
recent events has caused me to keep a keen eye on the developments in local universities.
July 20, 2006
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Disappointment with the Star
I was a little surprised and yet not suprised my slightly edited version of my complaint post got "published" and will be on for 30 days! I suppose they are listening?
World eBook Fair
May Chin would be very happy for me because it's FREE! Download away!
Islam in Southeast Asia
tea time reading?
The Original Folk
"... you are but a newcomer into a world that was occupied and lived in thousands of years ago by this humble group of people,the forgotten of Malaysia." Well said.
THE ORANG ASLI OF PENINSULAR MALAYSIA
more in depth understanding! a first step?
A Growing Environment
putting the focus on where it matters more and most!
Ted Engstrom and how we all need Gandalfs
Yes, Dan I fully agree and I'm so thankful for the "Gandalfs" in my life --> "The danger is we are so caught up in the here and now, we don't look to those who have walked before us and the wisdom they have."
Random Thoughts while my hair dries
I was a little surprised and feel supported by the comments on my post Random Thoughts before taking a bath
Perhaps I'm getting back into blogging rhythm. I was wondering should I write more. do I have anything to say? or more precisely - anything worth saying?
A full day for me today. Lectio Divina. delegation. administration. appointment 1. lunch (in 10 minutes). appointment 2. mini-tea time. suprise dinner (the pork was good). LiFe Group. Mini-supper. I ate quite a lot today. I also had "appointments on steriods". More than I usually have.
I need to have a day of study and reading. I need to catch up a little.
Looking forward for the Friday seminary trip.., it's also fund when there's a companion.
Today, practiced quite a bit of listening. Listening to what are people's passions. Trying to understand what motivates others. Discerning is quite a bit of hard work. I'm happy with the silence right now.
I'm back to my cooler and calm self. The air-con is good.
There's an ulcer in my mouth. A little bit of sore throat. Ouch!
Tonight is one of those nights where I come home and everyone is sleeping. Missed kissing the kids good nite. Tomorrow, we'll have time together.
Lots of conversations today have stirred my brain juices to bubble more. And there's also the feeling dimension too. And the constant questions on how do I connect this in concrete ways.
The world is REALLY much smaller than i think - especially relationally. I'm havign a look at Six degrees of separation again. :-)
Oh yes, today I learnt the importance and wisdom of restraint a little better.
July 19, 2006
Random Links 102
Absurdity of 'Thinking in Language' (The)
"...we think in or with language..." Pause. I'm trying to do this now.
Holy Tears
I've heard of Holy laughter ... now how is this different?
Take Nothing for the Journey: A Fresh Look at Church Health
I like the twist on the ABCs --> "The currency in use for measuring church growth has been the ABCs.. attendance, buildings, and cash. If a church has these in measure and expanding, it has been considered fruitful. But these are entirely secular values, imported from the business world in a capitalist and consumer culture. A biblical set of ABCs would look different: perhaps authenticity, belonging, and cultivating Christ. If God’s end goal is Jesus, if his purpose is to form people into the image of His Son, then transformation, formation resulting in new identity and new practices, must be at the core of ekklesial health."
Interview with Barbara Brown- PBS (via Len)
I heard one of her sermons online and it was amazing. She makes me think deeper with phrases like this: "Doubt? Oh sure, sure. Here's the way I presently live with doubt. Doubt often brings me to poke at what I believe, and when it topples, I realize that was an idol. And so doubt and disillusionment have been the divine gifts that have led me deeper into who God is. ...That's what I meant earlier about faith as trust. It's not certainty that I've got a hold of something that won't move. It's a willingness to keep walking into the next day, open to whatever may turn out to be true that day."
vocation, obscurity, the search for self
Perhaps some of us prefer to have the answers on a platter? Growing requires a different approach. "Just as God doesn’t spell out the answers in text-book fashion but instead invites us into the story, so he doesn’t offer us our identity on a platter. Instead, he gives us clues.. and invites us to journey with him in the process of discovery. He invites us to wrestle with him.. to sweat, labor, and dig.
Good reminder Jason! "...to know Jesus, to know what christianity is really truely about, is only possible by active participation in the life of a community of believers, and not by learning propostional truths/facts about Christianity (even if we affirm there are propostional truths about Christianity). And in terms of others finding out about christianity, our best apologetic (and often our worst!), is the community that live around their faith."
July 18, 2006
Random Thoughts before taking a bath
I must say that at first I wasn't "angry" or "upset" - I was troubled and concerned by the Java Tsunami . But after coming home and seeing the front page of one of our leading papers (whom is tagged as the People's paper) put the story of two people (celebrities) getting married, and a little section on top on Nude squat victim seeks compensation and just one line hinting on the Java Tsunami. I'm REALLY upset (to put it mildly) and _______________ (fill in the blanks with your imagination). Something is wrong somewhere. Sure there was some reports inside the paper. But, the frontpage is to SHOUT to people to pay attention to a particular news. News that we should be concerned about. Am I missing something here?
I was on the phone with someone who honestly confessed that he was unaware of the tragedy in Indonesia. It came to my attention because of a short "breaking news" segment last night. And then, I followed it on Google News But for someone who might be depending on the above mentioned paper for news (at least headlines) then the chances one to "feel" the impact was less or almost none existent. I wonder what was going on in people's heads and hearts whom had the power to decide what is supposed to catch people's attention to buy the paper this morning. What went on in the meeting room?
At least the other mainstream Chinese paper splashed the whole event on the front page. It at least shouted, "hey! This tragedy has happened in our neighboring country!" The other paper mentioned above shouted out, "Hey! Look at this happy couple!". I wish the couple well ... but where is our priority in terms of news reporting here. My respect for such journalistic decisions has hit a new low.
somehow, my thoughts here may be random but is revolving around the same theme. hmmm ....
Only last Saturday, I was moved when I heard a journalist stand up to share and ask questions about how to integrate her faith with her role as a journalist. While there is a struggle, I respect and admire the honesty in her questions and the implicit desire to "do something about it." and move towards some form of integration. We need more people like her. We need to affirm those who are "working these issues out"!
I've been challenged lately by reading stuff written by new friends whom I find perceptive and reflective which makes me think and moves my heart and motivates me for action (whether big or small steps). And thus, I feel journalist or writers or editors (anyone involved in "communications" of some sort) play such an important role - a responsible role - in presenting news or views. The issue at hand is not whether we agree or not with what they write. I'm disappointed with what I saw today. I hope tomorrow things will be better ... I wish (can I only wish now) that those who are sitting behind the computer screen to write or the desk to decide would raise the standards for the medium which is part of our daily reading diet. It starts with what we want people to notice first thing in the morning when they pick up the papers!
I seldom blog like this. But this is really bugging me. I confess I'm not a saint (existentially), I'm only human .. and very much a sinner still. If I offend anyone with anything I've written above, I can only say ... I'm upset right now. I don't want to play nice and deny my feelings.
Perhaps taking a bath now will cool me off . Maybe. Ok I'll throw in a prayer - a lament ...
A Hug and a Bath
"In the story of the Prodigal Son,
the father does not
send the son for a bath
before hugging him." ~ Dallas Willard
Richard Bona w/ Bobby Mcferrin
There's an "ambient" quality in this music, a quiet strength which I find myself drawn to - an authenticity about it ... things I wish to see more in the music we offer during corporate worship these days.
Tsunami again!
(Photo Olav Saltbones courtesy IFRC)
Java Tsunami Sweeps More Than 100 People to Their Deaths.
When I saw this reported briefly in the news last night. My heart sank - "Not again!?" Gareth and I prayed briefly last night before he slept - we prayed for the children. As usual, he asked "Why?". I told him, "The children need special help because they are small and not so strong..."
July 17, 2006
Bobby McFerrin - Solo
I've always liked Bobby McFerrin and am always amazed at how he uses his voice.
July 16, 2006
Random Thoughts after seminars, camp, and dinner
Good to be part of the Infectious Faith Camp organized by the Fellowship of evangelical students, Malaysia. I should have been there for the whole three days. But due to "unforeseen" circumstances which I hope to foresee and avoid in the future, I could manage to be there one night and the last morning. Thankfully, the staff was able to accomodate my "scheduling" difficulty.
It always encouraging to see varsity students who are serious with their Christian faith and involved through the interdenominational Christian Fellowships in their campuses.
It was great to see some familiar faces, find out new links who are actually linked with people I already know or events of the pass, and a wonderful time of conversation with a young man whom I see great potential and authenticity in his faith and future (actually there were many small talks like this). I feel sudden surges of hope after hanging out with them. This is good for an older me.
Before the camp, I spent almost a full 8 hours of listening, and being the MC for the Chinese Bonhoeffer seminar co-organized by one of our Lutheran congregations with the denomination.
It was encouraging to see about 100 people interested in the subject matter, and I appreciated some very constructive questions and comments from the floor. Dr Samuel Chiow who was the speaker provided a good introduction and some more in depth presentations based on themes found in Bonhoffer's two books, "The cost of discipleship" and "Life together".
Earlier on Friday, I spent time translating a half day seminar for pastors and leaders for Dr Samuel Chiow on the Theological and historical perspectives of the Pentecostal and Charismatic movements. Which was tiring physically, but as we were moving through names, events and comments on the first wave, second wave and third wave ... many memories were evoked for me here and there.
I was actually encouraged by the participation of the pastors who were present as well as the lay leaders who came. I think this is a good sign for our denomination at least in the KL and Selangor Districts. I hope the learning culture of our leaders and congregations will move towards greater health and maturity.
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One of the things I miss is my digital camera. If not I would have added a picture of our LiFE Group dinner and discussion today. In short, I had a good time catching up with people and the swim did us much good.
I was delighted with Janell (one of the 3 year old kids) in our group had a mini breakthrough in overcoming her fear of water which was fantastic. I'm thoroughly delighted to play some part in the process. It brings me such joy.
Gareth and Elysia as usual had a great time!
We managed to fix some contours for the LiFe Group which was a good thing. The food was good and of course the "fellowship" or interaction-conversations were good as well.
Another thing I should say. I genuinely missed worshipping with the BLC community today.
July 12, 2006
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life is short
Thanks Maggi for this :
"... life is short. It needs to be lived, not dribbled away.
It's so easy to get complacent, to waste great chunks of life just drifting along being resentful, tired, overworked, angry, or the wrong kind of lazy... Life needs to be savoured. You don't get it twice. If time is to be wasted, it needs to be wasted properly. If there's stuff to be angry about, do it thoroughly, then get it over with and move on. If you're tired, get some decent rest, good food, rehydrate, and get in shape to live a bit more. Don't waste it. Don't waste it. "
Does God accept us as we are?
Scot tells us --> "Tom Wright says “no.” Grace, he says, does reach down to us where we are but that same grace, because of the death and resurrection of Christ, is transformative; God’s grace doesn’t accept but transform. But, he does come back agree: “God accepts us were we are, but God does not intend to leave us where we are.” (548). But there's more ...
Apologetics
Lovely ending: "Proving something to be rational is not a proof that God’s grace transforms us, but it might make those in need of that grace turn their hearts in that direction."
ChurchShoppers
"Stop Church Hopping and Start Church Shopping!" .... useful database. Not too sure about the operating paradigm!
Modelling God
Alwyn and I have a strange way of converging in our reading :-) Of course, he's the better writer, summarizer, reporter, researcher, etc!
"Gracious Magnanimity" - Sentamu's presidential address
Lots to chew on directed to an English context which I think has wider implications ...
"Bishop Lesslie Newbigin is, for me, a great interpreter of the three things we must say about Christ and salvation today in England; how we relate Christianity to an England that has other faiths present. He says we must be:
1. "Exclusive in the sense of affirming the unique truth of the revelation in Jesus Christ, but not in the sense of denying the possibility of salvation to those outside the Christian faith.
2. Inclusive in the sense of refusing to limit the saving grace of God to Christians, but not in the sense of viewing other religions as salvific.
3. Pluralist in the sense of acknowledging the gracious work of God in the lives of all human beings, but not in the sense of denying the unique and decisive nature of what God has done in Jesus Christ."¹
It's from the Cross that the light of God's love shines forth upon the world in its fullest splendour."
Does studying Theology ruin your faith?
It enriched mine.
The Five Steps Again
For me I could use all the pictures to help understand the journey of faith/discipleship .. but the map is very helpful.
egg or omlette church
Food for thought?
Random Thoughts after the World Cup
Nothing very memorable actually. Headbutts, diving, a few fantastic goals, lots of tactical play, acting, red/yellow cards, etc .... keeping up with it was tiring. I'm glad it's over. Then again, why were we caught up in the first place? :-P
Will I manage to return to some more substantial blogging? we'll see. For now, it's random.
Living one day at a time .. one step at a time ... one can't plan exactly how to face the next challenge, but I can at least be more prepared. Somehow there's a subtle difference.
Called someone a while ago, I wonder what's on her mind? What leads one to choose one option over another?
Burdens, blessings, blurness, barriers, bumps ... bummed ...
The swim was helpful. A short one but a needed one. Somehow the tension in the mind and heart is released. New stress is always waiting. Some have a "free and easy" approach, I think I do too to some degree. It must be a pretty big load then.
Awareness is growing these days but understanding is often lacking. commitment is rare and the art of reviewing is almost not existence. Either we're too busy to review, or we think we can just move on.
Is there a difference between being stubborn and persevering? How about Holding on to a stand and plain closemindedness? How do we find the wisdom to discern the difference?
Oh it's past midnight. I was suppose to start sleeping.
I shall.
Let me find a book first.
July 10, 2006
Italy ... World Champions!
When asked who I thought would win the world cup, I said my heart would go to France for a fairy tale ending and a nice retirement for Zidane. But, after seeing Italy's performance in the last two matches my head went to them.
So, finally ... it went to penalties. And Italy are the champions 2006!
July 09, 2006
Hurt
Johnny Cash .... ok it's never to late to appreciate such treasures!
Redemption
OK DB, we are "evangelised" by you ... Johnny Cash is amazing!
Who am I?
The first time I heard this song was during a college Christian fellowship camp where I was the speaker. Perhaps it was the sincerity of the one leading as well and how the students made this song "their own". And I think in the midst of a lot of more "strict" (bordering legalistic) environments we're part of when it comes to Christian faith, then this song is a breath of fresh air.
God of Wonders
Nice to see how the original song writers do the song :-)
Blessed be Your Name
We sang this song at our worship gathering/service this morning. It's a song that helped me through a loss. Everytime, I hear it or sing it ... memories come back a little.
July 08, 2006
McDonald's/FIFA World Cup Fantasy Game
Here's My team Skitters info on McDonald's/FIFA World Cup Fantasy Game
Overall Team Ranking: 123,470
Current Team Points: 329
Asian Zone
Rank: 5,657
Not very impressive. Made some poor predictions. Not bad but not great!
July 06, 2006
Emergent Comebacks
What (again) is an emerging theology?
"The whole idea of an ‘emerging theology’ is nebulous, which is probably unavoidable and probably a good thing. But every now and again I feel the need to sketch some boundaries, contours, intentions, commitments ... " Like it or not, sketches like this is inevitable. Hmm ... The metaphor of "sketch" suddenly looks very significant here.
Is there a distinctive approach to theologising for the emerging church?
"Whilst the traditional church continues to battle between the conservatives and the liberals, and between the catholics and the evangelicals, the emerging church has been emphasising the need for right engagement in context – or what has been called orthopraxis (right action) rather than orthodoxy (right thinking). It has avoided getting involved in this tennis match over orthodoxy. The emerging church has been focusing on ‘doing’ church in a post modern context, which is all about being and doing church in our liquid modern times, which has created a new context of a culture of the spiritually restless and spiritual searching, or the openness of many to be spiritual tourists. Many emerging churches, have sought to draw on the best of the old and reframe it for our current post-modern context, in what has been called ‘ancient-future’." Just replace the word, "post-modern" with "post-colonial" or "global" and we're creating room for the possibility of much mutual learning. Because there are some of us here who are also seeking and exploring "A way of doing theology in which one takes into account: the spirit and message of the gospel; the tradition of the Christian people; the culture in which one is theologising; and social change in that culture."
An Emerging Story
The details maybe different but the themes of questioning, belonging, solitude, settling, moving on, community, relating more to “non-believers” but knowing “somehow that Christianity is my home”, etc. makes people like me who are pastors in local churches sit up and listen.
The challenge is after listening and even seeking to respond by attempting to “change” to amend what is perceived to me the inadequacies of the “church”, one still needs to “let go” of being “controlling” in expecting more predictable results.
An Emergent Village Affirmation of faith?
I like what what Scot says here, "I suggest that more folks take a gander at this before tossing rocks at EV folks. What some seem unwilling to accept is that EV has no statement of faith, since it a safe place for exploration, but these leaders seem to agree on these very typical doctrinal ideas. Let the conversation continue; learn where you are as you converse." So now we call them EV folks ... cool.
Emerging Kids & Communion: The Kids’ Table
The moments we begin including kids in the conversation we're moving in the right direction.
July 05, 2006
Disturb us, Lord
Thanks to Jonny Baker for this prayer and Jeff Ooi for the beautiful picture.
Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, Lord, when
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.
Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.
We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.
Jesus Role in History - Bishop N.T. Wright
We need to be "hit with a strong dose of inaugurated eschatology" :-)
Random Thoughts before Watching Germany vs. Italy
It's nice to get a couple of emails and a phonecall from the students and positive feedback (from one of the pastors of the students). The above photo is from my maiden seminary TEE course I co-taught with Sherman (who's missing from the photo) This reminds me of the time I was teaching conversational English before I went into seminary where I enjoyed student-teacher relations.
I think the World cup fever is affecting my blogging output. :-P
changes changes ... so many changes ... Lord have mercy.
101 things on the plate .. again. But I'm taking it easy,
It's wonderful today when I hear the story of one who's been with our community for some time and on and off (due to the nature of his job). And it's great to start the process of "catechism" looking forward for his baptism later this year!
I resisted buying a book today. I've got a lot of unread ones anyway. Slow down and read some ...
Stress (unhealthy) used to be seasonal for many of us ... now it's becoming or already a norm.
I need to get my old guitar back and change the guitar strings.
anyway, back to football ... with music!- it's more than sport ... it's a dance :-)
July 03, 2006
Michael Hedges
Silent Anticipations
When I was first introduced to the music & sounds of the late Michael Hedges, I could no longer see the guitar in the same way anymore :-) His music creates a kind of "atmosphere" and "environment" for me which I find hard to describe in words.
Ritual Dance
Superman Returns
I'll never forget that eventful afternoon after school when Mom and a cousin sister waited for me to pick me up for Superman: The Movie. I might not remember the exact details on how it felt during the movie itself. But strangely, I can recall quite vividly the anticipation and excitement going for it :-)
Gareth told us that he might be afraid of the bad guys in the movie but he's not scared of Superman. So, after school today I took him to watch the movie. I think he prefered Superman to appear more. And Gareth was indeed scared of Lex Luther - He called him "Botak Man" (Botak is Bald in Malay) which brought some humor to a very cold air-conditioned cinema.
I'm always amazed at how Gareth identifies with the characters of a movie whether it's animated or otherwise. He has very strong empathy. There were times when the "emotional" ride was a little too much for him. Of course, he's a little young to appreciate the whole movie, the story, the plot and the dialogue etc. But for him it was a simple, "Superman is a good man oh? He takes care of all the people." I think he's a lot like his mother *grin* where he loves to asks questions throughout the movie, like "Why is Superman doing this or that? or "Where is he going?" or "Why is he in a particular place?" .. that kind of stuff. The fun part was he doesn't ask quietly. But back to the emotional part, he's sad when someone is hurt - especially the "good guy" - and ESPECIALLY when the "hero" is weak and vulnerable. But you can see Gareth brighten up when the "hero" is ok and doing what he does best "taking care of the people."
Now I might try to get a hold of the first movie .. just to watch it again with new eyes. Interesting how the "new" brings us back to the "old".
Random Links 100!!!!
Brazil given harsh lesson in the art of becoming a team
I watched the game between France and Brazil, and I could "feel" the difference not just in the way they played, but even in their facial expressions. And that was after watching England bow out of the World Cup kicked out by Portugal. Both games are helpful in providing "analogies" for a whole lot of things from working as a team to lmoving as a local church, from exisiting in a denomination to the struggles in a small group, etc. Fill in the blanks ________ and explore. The whole piece is interesting, here's a teaser paragraph: "Brazil arrived at this World Cup not as a great team, but as a group of spectacular individuals. They stayed that way. No one would have wanted them to lose their Brazilian DNA in becoming a team. We wanted them to play for fun and with a smile, and take risks. But you have to do all that as part of a calculated strategy. The Brazilian players did not grasp that point."
9.5 theses on listening to preaching
so much advice is on how to prepare and preach, how about to listen for a change?
The Myth of Expository Preaching & the Commodification of the Word
Hmmm ... in Malaysia, I'm not sure whether many are expository preachers - so far a lot of what I've heard is more topical (even if it has many texts or springs from a single text). I think I'm more like a Narrative preacher. Then again, I'm basically interested in "Biblical" preaching in whatever forms where we "hear" the Gospel (There's a strong Lutheran law/gospel streak here). Anyway, check this out: "Some might imply that I don’t believe preaching is any longer possible in the postmodern worlds. But for me, nothing could be further from the truth. Some might also argue the same problem plagues topical preaching. However, I believe expository preaching could be more dangerous because it carries a myth of being “truer” to God’s word. There are those who respond to all of this by dismissing the role of traditional preaching altogether. And some who respond with attempts to democratize preaching"
Becoming
we are human "beings" and also "becomings"?
Why ask Why
Gareth loves to ask "Why?" more than three to four times at one go ...
Reclaiming the adjective - Christian
"What is it to be a Christian or Christ follower, why people cringe when they hear the word Christian, and why are some Christians crap at doing the stuff?"
Without love we die
"Without the love of our parents, sisters, brothers, spouses, lovers, and friends, we cannot live. Without love we die. Still, for many people this love comes in a very broken and limited way. It can be tainted by power plays, jealousy, resentment, vindictiveness, and even abuse. No human love is the perfect love our hearts desire, and sometimes human love is so imperfect that we can hardly recognise it as love.
In order not to be destroyed by the wounds inflicted by that imperfect human love, we must trust that the source of all love is God’s unlimited, unconditional, perfect love, and that this love is not far away from us but is the gift of God’s Spirit dwelling within us."~ Henri Nouwen (via Maggi Dawn)
This is worth sometime pondering on.
Gong Gong & Poh Poh
God has been very gracious, I thought before the day ends today. I'd express my gratefulness to God and May Chin's parents who've been a wonderful support to us all these years. They are wonderful Grandparents to Gareth (especially since he spends the day with them while we work) and also Elysia (and cousin Darlene who is also in this picture).
We had some fun with them during the classic World cup match between Argentina and Germany at their home because they have cable TV. At the end the kids slept with Grandma, while May Chin and I munched our chips, drank our lemonade beer with May Chin's dad as he complained sometimes why the players were passing the ball backwards. :-)
July 01, 2006
Sweet Hour of Prayer
"Whenever I happen to be prevented by the press of duties from observing my hour of prayer, the entire day is bad for me. Prayer helps us very much and gives us a cheerful heart, not on account of any merit in the work, but because we have spoken with God and found everything in order" ~ Martin Luther (Luther's Works 54, p.17)
I can't say I manage to have an hour of prayer everyday (10-15minutes still does wonders!). But, increasingly I'm beginning to appreciate more and more what Luther is saying above. The whole day which is already full of potential chaos, crisis, expectations and whatever is always ready to drown me. So, for one's heart to be cheerful and find some "order" makes a whole lot of difference.
This morning is one of those kind of days, much of the battle is mental and emotional (as well as spiritual). It's war of the (inner) world. So, while it could only get some settling after a swim an hour ago (where I actually did some "slow breathing" here and there) - the physical ordering helped me create space for a kind of centering.
After the swim, a good cold shower, some celtic music as the background, I began prayer journaling and for a change get the help of Brother Martin on his meditation on Psalm 42.4. At first I was alone, then the kids returned with Mummy. Normally, I'd go "Ouch! just when I was beginning to start praying!" But this time, perhaps everthing is in slight better "order", it's ok.
I'm even blogging now while mummy is managing the hard task of getting the kids for a nap. Ok, I'll go and help a bit :-)
My heart is a little bit more cheerful now.